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today is the day I was born, 17 years ago.

it was cross-country, the run was bearable. michelle and yee chen lost their phone. screw you thieves. may your family line be jinxed.

the time to sit in lines were scary. students were the easy part. Audrey and the gang were scarier than anything else. they made the entire school sing. oh well popularity meningkat. weepee. teachers wished me, strangers wished me, students wished me, prefects wished me. I feel utterly honoured.

Keith came to my lair(house) with his dslr and when there is a dslr and a Loy, there will be lighting speed snapshots. I'm sure Sofea and Lou Jian can relate to this.

we were summoned to Herbs and Spices by the women and Johan and Hui and Zach. oh yes the mini Loy came too. right.

settled down. eat. had some good laughs with ma friends. I can't believe this thing is so fun. I can't believe that they actually care. I can't believe that I place myself so highly in so many people's heart. I can't believe that my friends are so adorable and indescribably fantastic. I can't believe that I am lost of words most of the time. I can't believe that I am so loved. 

so many wishes I am left speechless and awestruck. I can't express my gratitude towards all my loved ones. I really appreciate what everyone did and will do in the near future. may this memory be with both me and you. friends are the best.

Thank you.

I now know our friendship will last till we die. we will have ourselves laughing our asses off in 20 years' time and our children will think we are maddass freaks. 

Everyone had fun. I have solid proof.

Okay Sofea you need to smile next time. This is your one and ONLY pic.

Oh yes, my precious presents.

 from Kong and Jovynn and Audrey and Kok Yin

 phone casing from Pang (Grrrr You liar) and my mummy

 keproan facial product from mummy

angpau from mummy aunt uncle grandpa grandma 

kecutean cup from Fam and family

ONE MORE FROM HO (on its way)

this year will be the year that I will never forget. eternally.

note to Lou Jian and Sofea,

next time when there is a birthday bash,

take group photos, cake photos, nice food photos

DO NOT EAT BEFORE SNAPPING SEXY PICHAS

Terminal reduction

it has been very long, a little too long.


time has done it irreversible damage on everyone, the scars that it left are unseen but we know it is there, deep underneath. we can conceal it with the apparent laughter and joy yet it gets so much at one point, it strikes like a hunter out of its den. the prey all dies. though we had been through much worse, it appears this is the end. but I do not mind one bit. thank you for being with me long time ago, and thank you for leaving me fending on my own.


fate and faith have brought us together, the unexpected to be bonded strongly. we shine brightly together, as one, as bright as the stars above. our mightiness will grow and expand with no boundaries. the friendship we have will last, I am sure of it. this would be a thing to cherish and honour as we have matured and from a kid to a young adult. this process will be remembered eternally.


the power one holds depends not on one's status but it is from within, from the heart. one manipulates their power, subconsciously, using one's power should be effortless. if one does too much in order to obtain or gain or display power and control, it portrays the instability and weakness. use what is yours, lose what is not yours. you can only lie to yourself, taking what's not yours as yours. 

Embrace the unknowns.

Illness and fear spread through the atmosphere. Everyone is shook up. We all gathered around, discussing about the little that is left behind. We are to grow again, we will rebuild our mighty kingdom, restore it to its past glory. What you said is nothing to what we will cause, sit back and witness our true force. You will be totally amazed.


Each class that we attend is like a brand new page of the book, we leave traces and marks of ourselves on it by learning. Darken the faded writings on the book by revising, tearing the page off by abandoning what we learnt.


Friendship is common between humans, but true, trustworthy, long lasting friendship is what everyone leans to. It is easy to spot those who are really true and frank to you. They are those who will not leave you when you are getting a smack from your superior, they will not let you do what you like because they know it is incorrect, they will cling to you like they are souls that wish to possess you. And they will push you and beat the hell out of you because you are being stupid and doing the wrong things, they will try your food before you get to eat them because they do not want you to die because of the hidden poison.


You will picture them with their kids, at the coffee shop, chatting like mad cows with you. You will even miss them really badly, more than anything. They are simply the most exciting and beautiful people in your life.

Jot down the memorable moments in life.

Staring into nothing, just drifting away from the actual situation is one of the solutions to deal with whatsoever matter that you have to deal with. Regardless of the nasty comments and rude criticisms, you would still be the one and only person who will decide how the book ends. You hold the absolute power to every single thing you do. You decide the right or wrong.

It seems to most people, their outer appearance means a lot. They tend to look good, abandoning their true sides. At times, the inner-self, lahiriah, is overpowered by the fake outer appearance that they put on. People loose their genuineness and blends completely with the false personality. The final output is a dual-personality, weird, freaky, mental.

I was similar to many others, easily disturbed by how people think of me. I have grown throughout the years, scarred by many and fought for long. And now, here I stand, tall and mighty and fat, with a burst of confidence that is not shaken by any means. Sometimes I do doubt myself, that is true, but every time I do that, it just makes my ego grow, boosting my certainty and boldness. The process was long and demanding, I live through it. Now I am truly me. Every nicknames people give me, I just wave it off like how people would treat a pest. Every saddening incident(s) that rupture my heart and soul, I make my best effort to conceal it, yet sometimes I fail.

Call me arrogant. Call me ignorant. Call me judgemental. But at the end of the day, you are the __________.

Keen to see what will happen

It has been a long period of time since I have blogged, yet, my writing skills are still present.


So many things have happened since January. I felt numbness in my left arm, because I never lie/sleep/sit/stand properly. The numbness has eased leaving an unpleasant headache/ pain the abdomen once in a while for me, I guess this is what will happen if you do something bad for too long.


Yesterday was cross-country, it was really fun, ran most of the time, maybe walking for 15% of the whole length, not bad. The fact that I can run so long and far makes me happy, I am easily pleased, even small things like chirping birds flying in pairs make me happy. Well, that makes me a good suck-up subject.


Puan Selina's meet-up was yesterday, I am still awaiting the photos to be uploaded by Jovynn. It was really fun to spend time with Puan Selina in Old Town yesterday, she even paid for the lunch, which initially we planned to belanja her, but after a distraction of snapping photos with her, we forgot. How dumb. Oh, oh, Michelle and I ate a birthday cake in Old Town too. How nice of the my friends to buy a cake for us.


Ho Ho Steamboat was very nice. Food for 10 and drinks and stupid wet towels only cost 198.10, then 13 people ate, so it is only 15.20 per head. How economic. We are to do this more often.


Now I am to make up stories for my BM nilam.

May my curse of Love land you on the prettiest land

First day of school was awesome with a baking assembly that lasted no so long and children hurrying around.

It was not the chaotic situation as anticipated but the kids that came were rather disappointing as they were not cute and I do not have a fetish in children, I just appreciate adorable kids.

Today is the third day of school, the only thing I wrote until now is my pocket notebook and the Mathematics 1. Not as interesting as I expected it to be as the school hours were flooded by numerous talks and speeches by teachers including a rather amusing one by Encik Mizy about Fire & Electric Safety but the worst was today's Encik Haniff's titled WHERE ARE YOU HEADING AFTER THIS?, it is about life after SPM but I see it as a question so I answered Rumah as I will be going home after school. The irritation felt by Mr. Haniff is undeniable.

How I wished today was a fairytale and I can change the weather so that I could reach Kasturi untouched by the weather. HOGWARTS! I am waiting for your pending letter.

OKAY, I KNOW YOU WILL READ THIS, SO:

YOU ARE MY AMOUR

Holidays are over. Get your pants up.

Its 24th December. Christmas Eve. How time passed. But the bloody fact is that we are to treasure time. I cannot believe I blogged again in less than 50hours. I just felt right to wish everybody a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.

Peace out.